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In Limbo And My Thoughts On Being Parentless

Michelle Lindblom
5 min readSep 8, 2023


Limbo and Vertigo

The past few months I have felt outside of myself, as if floating in the clouds. In limbo. Present enough to function in the day to day, but detached from more complicated matters. It began with some annoying imbalance issues and vertigo. My thoughts scattered and unstable. Brain fog had set in and, distracted, I was not able to concentrate for any period of time. My mind and body were obviously trying to tell me something.

I have found that when these issues occur in concert with one another, it is a sign that I need to slow down and reflect on the internal. In addition, I need to check in with my immediate environment and how it is affecting my overall health and well being.

When contemplating my vertigo experiences the past eight years, I realize they have all come at times of transition. I cannot fully explain this phenomenon and do not necessarily want to. It’s simply a time where I need to absorb that uncertainty and let it do its thing.

Admittedly, when experiencing the full-on effects of vertigo, I do seriously want to die. The spinning, imbalance, nausea, brain fog, listlessness is unbearable for me. I am a wimp when not feeling myself.

Luckily these sessions usually last no more that 24 hours. On the other hand, this particular…