Walking in Mystery
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Letting Go of Worry
Life can often feel like walking
blindly into a cave
Where there are no known facts
of what is beyond our existing vision
A seemingly dark
and heavily anxious space
Mystery is ever present
Uneasiness abounds
Each day I enter that metaphorical cave
Taking a walk in mystery
Sometimes there is intense uncertainty
or unpredictability like I have never known
However,
I no longer walk
surrounded in fear
What lay ahead
does not give me pause
I make the choice to commence
despite any hovering hesitations
How did I get to this mindset?
Years of worrying
Disrupted days and nights.
Living on the edge
of numerous proverbial cliffs
Asking myself
when the next ball will drop
With blunt force
or a more nuanced slap
Spending my days in
a constant disquieted state
The hamster wheel ensnaring
my thoughts
Refusing to let go
because of pride
Placating
my need for comfort
Avoiding the dark face of my fears
denying their existence
Finally taking that leap
Stirring up the faith
within me
Taking the Leap
Some of these words are from a prompt I wrote a while ago about the “Coming of Winter”. To me it is not just winter where uncertainty and darkness surrounds us. Ambivalence and worry is always in season.
