Limbo and Vertigo The past few months I have felt outside of myself, as if floating in the clouds. In limbo. Present enough to function in the day to day, but detached from more complicated matters. It began with some annoying imbalance issues and vertigo. My thoughts scattered and unstable. Brain fog had…

Why Do We Need So Many Choices? — Abundance: The Downside Looking at a restaurant menu, I prefer to see only 5 choices. I mean really good choices, not 50 mediocre choices. Not to mention walking down the bread aisle at the grocery store where I want to explode because of the overwhelming and excessive selections: white (premium, round, artesano, organic…

Too Much Meaningless Chatter Talking does not need to take place for us to listen and communicate. Matter of fact it often gets in the way. We are constantly wrestling with our monkey mind, not to mention those gnarly conscious thoughts we carry with us everywhere. …

The Pause: Delayed Responses Are Thoughtful Responses — I have never been a quick witted individual. My timing is always off and usually I think of something clever or a rebuttal long after the fact. A flawed trait that I loathed about myself. Although I still get angry when words escape me, I no longer think of my…

The Roots We Spread Abandonment has deep roots in my family history. Premature deaths took the lives of several generations of my maternal grandparents and left young children without one or the other parent. The fierce sense of loss and sadness spread its roots like a cancer throughout my ancestry. …

The Snarled Web Roots move in directions unforeseen reckless spontaneous. Sometimes plotted and forged. Much like life. Who’s to say which directions are right or wrong? Assessing without knowing the backstory. My roots reveal a snarled web. A complex system of surrender and unintentional abandonment. Life’s twists and turns taking hold…

You Are How You Drive — Recent fatal driving behavior during a 48 hour period killed 6 people on several Central Oregon highways close to where I live. One accident involved someone going over the centerline (two lane highway), sideswiping a semi and trailer, then striking a Toyota Rave4 which exploded, killing two adults and their…

Letting Go of Worry Life can often feel like walking blindly into a cave Where there are no known facts of what is beyond our existing vision A seemingly dark and heavily anxious space Mystery is ever present Uneasiness abounds Each day I enter that metaphorical cave Taking a walk in mystery Sometimes there…

Triggered Teeth clench Shoulders tighten Brow furrow Mouth grimaces Stomach churns Heart hurts Spirit diminishes Optimism shadows Eyes dull Trust hesitates Ability to see the light dims Faith in humanity challenged. These are physical and emotional manifestations that have come up many times throughout my life. …